I dyed my hair last night. It was pretty exciting. I’ve never really done anything like that before. No tatoos, no weird piercings, and no fake hair color. Until now. Well, don’t get too excited…I’m not going to get a tatoo or my nose pierced, but coloring my hair was pretty adventerous for me. It’s dark auburn, but it’s not as drastic a difference as I was hoping for. I am going to go for a bigger change next time.

I got the videos that I ordered off of Ebay for the kids. Kyra is watching the Barney movie for the second time, right now. She also watched Lady and the Tramp, earlier. That one is cute. All together, there were twenty movies, and seventeen of them were Walt Disney movies. I got them for forty bucks. I thought it was a pretty good deal. I’m going to put some of them up for her birthday, and some up for Christmas. Chris thinks that is silly, and I should just give them all to her now. I think that it would be better to give them to her at separate times. I think she’ll enjoy them more that way. I think I’ll probably give Eli Pinnochio and Bambi for his birthday. I know they are really “both” of the kids’, but that doesn’t mean I can’t give them to one or the other for a special occasion. Anyway, I thought it was a really good deal. I’m still waiting on my Denise Austin Yoga dvd that I bought on Ebay. I wish it would hurry up and get here. The yoga routine I’ve been doing off of the Video on Demand on Comcast is pretty old and laughable. I like Denise Austin. So, anyway, I wish it would get here.

I’ve spent all day in my pajamas. It’s been nice. lol Not being supposed to wash my hair for 24 hours has given me the opportunity to not take a shower and not feel bad about it. lol Don’t worry. I’m not all grungy. My hair doesn’t look so hot, though. Having naturally curly hair, I have to wash it every day, or it is just one big frizzy poof. Well, that’s all pointless, except that I recommend everyone having a “lounge around in your pj’s” day, every once in a while.

Well, I guess that’s it for now. So long!

I got my MRI done last night. It wasn’t so bad. Last time I had one, when I was a kid, I felt really claustrophobic and cried. This time, I nearly fell asleep. I guess it shows your a mom of little kids when you appreciate the MRI for the 25 minutes to just lay down with no one bothering you or talking to you or wanting you to do something. I won’t get the results till probably next week.
I feel like a total loser today. I really felt like it a lot worse last night. The reason is so stupid, but I hate feeling so bad about myself. The reason is mostly because my house is a mess. I was doing good until we got sick with the virus, and, between us all being sick with that, the kids getting sinusitis and colds and being whiny and clingy, revival, and Chris working, I can’t get on top of it again. Everytime I jump in to get something done, the baby starts crying, and I have to see to him. I clean the living room up in the morning, and two hours later they’ve got it a total wreck again. I feel like such a loser. I wonder why so much of my self-worth is tied up into whether my house is clean or not. Is it because it’s my job? I don’t know. I’m not a neat person, by nature. I’ve always been a little messy. So it’s harder for me to be clean than some people I know, who are just natural neat freaks. I’m such a loser. Ugh.

Wow. It’s been a long time since I’ve posted in my blog. I’ve been busy with sick kids, I guess. Well, that and my new game. I’ve been addicted to The Sims 2. It is so much fun. Anyway, the kids have been sickish. Kyra has sinusitis, and is on antibiotics and prescription cough medicine. Elijah has been somewhat feverish the past two days, and has a runny nose. I’m just glad it’s not more serious sickness, like the virus we had a couple of weeks ago.

We had a bit of a scare last night, and ended up in the emergency room. Chris was working. Kyra fell and hit her head on the corner or the wall, and cut her forehead. It was kind of gaping, so I took her to the ER. Since Chris was working, I had to take Eli, too. So, I had my mom meet me there to watch him for me. She didn’t have to have stitches. They glued it instead. I was glad. I was afraid that if she had to have stitches she would be traumatized and scared of doctors. She was very good, though, and stayed very calm. She was very appreciative of the doctor. She kept tell me last night “the dahdah helped me” and “the dahdah fixed my boo boo”. Very sweet. I was proud of how good she was.

I have an MRI this evening on my shoulder. I guess we’ll see then what the problem is. The doctor told me that if it was a torn rotator cuff I would have to have surgery. That would be difficult with the kids, but oh well. You gotta do what you gotta do, I guess.

Chris is off today. I’m glad. I don’t know if we will do anything over the next couple of days, but I’m glad he will be home. At the very least, he can take the kids to his grandmother’s or something so I can clean. My house is such a mess, and I can’t seem to get anything done. The kids have been very needy and clingy since they don’t feel very good.

We had beautiful weather yesterday. Kyra and I went for a walk. It was very warm, and pretty.

Well, I hear crashes coming from Kyra’s room, so I better go see what Eli’s gotten into.

Don’t visit Ebay! Why? It’s addicting. You start browsing, and you’re like, “Wow! What a great deal.” and “Oh, that would make a great birthday gift for so-and-so!”. Before you know it, you’ve got bids on five different things, and you’re wondering why you even bid on the fifth one. It’s Ebay fever. It’s very contagious, and has an incubation period of about five minutes. So, my advice to you…unless you’re ready to put out the mulah, don’t go near Ebay!

I had a pretty good day today. I took Kyra to the library, while Chris kept Elijah. She really liked it. She was really excited about going to the “liberry”. She checked out three books. We went to the store after that. I had fun spending time with her one on one. I haven’t had a lot of one on one time with her since Elijah was born.

Today was rainy, rainy, rainy. Makes me think of “Rainy days and Mondays”. Didn’t really get me down, just made me lazy today. I didn’t feel like doing anything, except maybe taking a nap. I worked out, and did the minutest of chores around the house. I feel like a bum, but oh well. Blame it on the rain.

Nothing much to talk about today.

Yesterday was a fun day, though. It was beautiful yesterday, and so warm! We went out and ate at KFC for lunch, went to Walmart, took the kids to the park, and then the kids and I went to my mom’s and played outside and ate supper with them, while Chris stayed home and played his video game. Kyra had so much fun at the park. We stopped and bought a loaf of bread on the way there, and we fed the ducks, geese, and seagulls. Kyra liked that. I did, too. It was kind of fun. One of the ducks bit Kyra’s hand. She was holding a piece of bread, and it just came up and tried to eat it. Kyra said, “Ouch! That duck bite my hand!”. It was kind of funny. Eli would have loved it, but he was asleep in the van the whole time. He was tuckered out. I’m gonna take them back, the next pretty day we have.

Riverfront Park’s playground has went down the pooper, lately. I don’t know what they are attempting to do, but the little playset Kyra loved so much is half torn down. The entire area where it is has been cemented. What in the world are they thinking of, cementing a kids’ play area? Are they trying to break kids’ bones? I can just hear the genious Harriman people’s logic….”Well, sure some kids might break some bones, and we might have some serious head wounds…but think of how much work we’re saving not having to refill the area with all that sand or bark!” Needless to say, we went to Roane County Park instead.

Well, Kyra is wanting some help with something, so I guess I better go fulfill my parental duties.

I stayed up till 2:30 last night talking to Jannette, and boy do I feel better this morning. She put me in a better mood last night, and then I slept late this morning. Can’t beat that. Now, I have a messy house to tackle. I got on the ball Monday and got the house pretty well clean, and then we all go sick. The house went to crap, and now I’m back where I started. So, I have to start in on that. I want to workout first, but Chris is in our bedroom asleep. I wish he would sleep downstairs during the day, but it IS cold down there right now. He intrudes on my domestic activities when he sleeps in our room during the day.

I don’t remember if I mentioned it, but we made my mom sick. I felt really bad. She came over twice while we were sick to help me out…first to bring pedialyte for the kids, and second to stay with them while I went to the store…and she caught the nastiness from us. I feel guilty.

Well, I guess I better get off my butt and get to it. Why can’t someone come up with a self-cleaning house? We’ve got every other dang thing under the sun. I should have asked for a maid for Christmas.

I’ve had a crappy day today. Chris hurt my feelings and made me mad, and that tints my whole day gray. Plus, I’m tired and lonely and worn out and bored. I was really excited to have lost a couple of pounds, and also I lost two and a quarter inches from my waist and one from my hips. Big cause for celebration to me. Private victory, I guess. Man, this is so boring. My life is getting to be so mundane. It’s depressing. I’ve got to get out more. My friend gave me some ideas of some things to go out and do with the kids when I talked to her tonight, and I think I’m going to follow her advice. Thanks, Jannette. I’ve got to do something. I’ve been depending too much on other people to make me happy.

Who am I kidding? I’m never going to be able to play the guitar. I’m making no real progress, and I don’t have anyone to help me. The couple times I’ve suggested to Chris that I would like to take lessons, he’s told me that I don’t need to. I did have one person helping me occasionally, but have found that that avenue is no longer available. So, now what? I want to play, but I’m having a hard time understanding stuff. I don’t know how to go about learning. It’s so frustrating to want to do something, and have no real hope that it’s going to come to fruition. I should probably just sell my guitars and go on with it. Crap! This makes me so depressed.

Well, everything seems to be back to normal now. The kids are pretty much better, and so am I, for the most part. I still have sinus issues, but I had that before I got the virus. It’s the dang weather that does that to me, I think. It’s January, and it’s likely to get up to 70 this week. That’s crazy! One week it snows, the next week you’re out in your shirt sleeves. Screws with my sinuses.

I finished East of Eden last night. It was such a good book. I could barely put it down. I love John Steinbeck. I am in awe of his writing talent. I liked the ending of this one, too. It was much more satisfying. The only book I have left to read is Cannery Row. I’m not sure if I’ll start it right away or not. After that, I’ll have to make another trip to the used bookstore, or I may go to the library. I don’t go to the library much, because of having to take the books back on time. It’s not like it’s hard to do, but sometimes it tends to be near impossible.

I’ve been so happy the last couple of days, on account of making a new friend. There’s something so simply…wonderful…about finding someone that you can relate to and that you like to share experiences with, and just talk about day to day things with. I’ve needed that for a long time. I hope it lasts this time.

Chris was supposed to be off today, but he’s working tonight. Too bad. We couldn’t have had an evening to ourselves, if had of been home. All of the overtime money is nice, though. I was hoping to talk him into filling up the hot tub, though. He’s been “meaning” to do it for months now. I doubt he will ever do it this winter. It sure would be nice, though.

I got Kyra the cutest little skirt yesterday at Walmart for five bucks. It was so cute. I can’t wait to see her wear it. I bought me a new skirt at Catos the other day. It’s blue jean, and really cute. I was in desperate need. My old ones weren’t fitting very well. I wish I could tell everyone that I bought a size four, but it would be kind of lame since I bought a different skirt the week before that was just a tad loose and was a size eight. I don’t know why people can’t get together and size everything the same. It would make things a lot simpler. Anyway, since being sick, I lost a pound. I weigh, right now, what I weighed when I got pregnant with Kyra. Too bad things don’t look the same as the did then. I have quite a way to go to that.

Hmmm. What else? Nothing I guess. I probably won’t do much of anything today. Same old, same old. I just might start that other book this evening, after all.