My Mantra
I have been so discouraged this past week. I have so much homework. I got a lot done today, but I still have a lot of preparation to do before I can be confident enough to take my test. I also have the midterm this week. It is overwhelming when you add in my other responsibilities. Especially the kids. I really don’t feel that bad about letting the house go, or pretending not to notice that the yard needs mowed. I do, however, feel bad when I have to do homework and leave the kids to their own devices. I feel like I’m neglecting them. Oh, I am taking care of them, but I haven’t really played with them in a week.We’ve not been to the park in over two weeks. I miss Chris. They miss their Daddy.
It is easy to get depressed. I tend to be easily depressed, anyway, so I must guard against it. I have adopted a mantra that I stole from Amy. It was her answer for the question about how she is doing with her husband deployed. She told me, “It is hard, but God is good.” I keep telling myself this. I am asking God to burn it into my heart. I don’t want to forget. Yeah. It is hard. But God. Is. Good. He will help me. He will get me through this place.
This is too much for me to handle on my own. Thankfully, I don’t have to do it on my own. If I can just keep my eyes on Him, He is faithful to be there to help me. Faithful to guide me. Faithful to carry me through the difficulties I’m facing. He’s always there. Just waiting for me.
I’m counting my blessings tonight. He has been very good to me. I am a blessed woman. I’m leaning on him tonight. Because I am tired. I’m ready to just let him take over.
It is hard, but God is good.
