Ugh! I went to bed over an hour ago. I was really sleepy when I went. So why am I still awake?
Well, first of all, as soon as I laid down, I had horrible heartburn welling up my throat. I’m talking eye-watering, throat-burning, gives me a headache heartburn. It’s awful. I was spared it with Kyra. With Elijah, I had it really bad. With this one, it’s been moderate up until the last few weeks. Now, it’s a killer. I’m hoping that, like with Elijah, it means that Little Man is going to have a headfull of hair. That was one old wives tale that proved true for me.
Secondly, I am huge. I’m talking HUGE. I cannot sleep on my stomach or my back. While lying on my side, the weight of my enormous belly (I am carrying all of my pregnancy weight right in front) makes my back hurt. Sleeping is a very hard thing to do when you are so incredibly uncomfortable.
Thirdly, I can’t quit thinking. My mind is going over and over the things that I need to do over the next two days. I am planning trips to the grocery store, housework, what I need to pack in my hospital bag, and the outfits that the kids should wear to the hospital. Not to mention just generally thinking about the baby. What will he look like? Will my surgery go uncomplicated? Will he be a good nurser? Will Elijah be jealous? I. Can’t. Quit. Thinking.
The fourth and biggest reason that I am still awake? I did not take my magic sleepy pills before going to bed. Don’t ask me why? I know that I have a hard time sleeping without them. I told myself that I was sleepy enough to go to sleep without them. Sleepy does not trump uncomfortable, though.
So, here I sit. Again. Awake when everyone else is sleeping. Well, Little Man is awake, but he doesn’t count. He’s always moving around, practicing his kickboxing.
I just wanted you all to know how miserable I am right now. Chris is not here, so I can’t wake him up to tell him that I am miserable. He can’t even hear my moans of misery. So, I just wanted you to know.

Maybe now I can go to sleep. I need to sleep!