In my favorite poem by Robert Frost, Nothing Gold Can Stay, he reminds us that like the seasons of nature, life is one season melting into another, and quickly fading away. This is my attempt to document each season in my life and my family.

Measuring Up

Filed under: General — Rachel at 12:43 am on Tuesday, June 24, 2014

On my bathroom wall, there’s a series of pencil marks on the wall. Short lines with the children’s names and dates written beside of them. There are new marks every six months or so, tracking my children’s growth. It’s always quite the production when I measure everyone. They stand, heels against the wall, shoulders square, and I place a thin book on their head to make a level mark. They’re always very excited to see how they’ve grown.

Today, Hailey and Logan were looking at the marks on the wall, and I noticed them doing something I’ve seen my other kids do a hundred times. They attempt to measure themselves, and they misjudge their height because they try to measure themselves at eye level. They don’t see themselves as I do and measure from the top of their heads, but they look at the mark on the wall that is eye level and decide that is how tall they are.

It hit me today. That has so often been how I have measured myself. I cannot see myself from someone else’s perspective. I see only from my own viewpoint. I hear people say nice things about me, and I don’t believe it because that is not what I see. Over the last few years, I’ve learned to measure myself differently, though. I have had a few people speak truth into my life over and over until I could hear it. They told me that I was taller than I thought I was. They placed a book on my head, and drew a line on my wall. They said, “Look! This is how tall you really are. You’re bigger than you thought, huh? You’re growing.”

I have grown. Sometimes I feel like I’ve made no progress, because I look out of these same eyes and nothing has seemed to change. However, when I look at the marks left on my wall, I can see that, yes, little by little, I have grown.

I don’t feel small anymore.

2 Comments »

Comment by Gretchen

June 24, 2014 @ 10:06 pm

That’s awesome Rachel! Made me a little teary. You make me wish I could put into words all the moments of life we have…but then, that’s why I married Jim, he is my compliment. 🙂
He’s good at documenting moments. .. I’m good at being ok with not being good at that. 🙂

Comment by Rachel

June 24, 2014 @ 10:43 pm

Thank you, Gretchen. <3

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